Tribute to Marina Santana Garza

Mom, how are you good I would think.  Not sure where I should start, let see at the end of last year the renter actually it was when Linda moved out in June of 2009. We started with renters whom seen to move  more  than. So two bad renters and left us with utilities that were suppose to change in. Mom I am following a sleep so I think I will sign off for the night//

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Gez, the writing above shows as if I was very tired. I have forgotten that I started this draft. so let see if I can pick up where I left behind..talk with Debbie Cortiz (think that is how Debbie and Chico spell his last name.) Mom sorry it has been awhile since I been on and do not remember when I started this draft.  But as you know I have been crying to you every nite since cannot remember when that began..:)  With that thought in mind. i know I have mention to you about the procedure that I will be having done tomorrow. I told you that morning to get me off the ground and hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay. The funny part of that statement is you never held me and told me ever thing was going to be all right, don’t worry I have never held that against you or even now as we speak…in fact you never told me you loved me, told me a lot that you wish I was never born that all I have done since I was born was to give you grief, heart ache. I am so sorry mom that you felt that way.  Before I return to Ohio after your Surgery you did mention that you could not understand that everything you had done to me, that you would not expect me to be there. guess I just thought you are my mom, and no matter want you said to me I would always love you.

I know during those times years life was different for the era at that time…you know want mom I will be back later sounds as though we have company..

this the day i fell and was scare mom, i thought my neck was mess up sgain. kinda hard totype with one hand and get the spelling right. mom wish i could call and here your voice. it would be easier than trying to type. love ya mom i will be back and dad i am sure he will be alright.  we should know something soon. he forgets but he forgot things before when i was younger. mmm but now it could br serious/ later mom

i just got off the phone with dad and i guess you know that he was told they found spots on his kidneys i just don’t know what to say mom i am lost for words, sometimes i can see other times i am blind i have missed you everyday the talks that we had on the phone and stuuf we would talk about lol, i am very sad about dad and i have no idea what to say to him when i hung up the phone i began to cry and then i came to this place to write things and i guess feel a bit of peace here not sure . i will be planning a trip down to texas soon and god knows i do not want to go by my self not what happen the last time i was there what a night mare that was ( shaking my head in a no way )i hope this time one of my sons go with me or even maybe mark will be able to take off for a week . i hope dad will get some type of good news soon , i know he is old and has lived a hard life but i just don’t want him in pain like i did not want you in .the the world turns is not just a show but is also a way of life . i will talk later love you mom

Well, how do I begin: not sure how to say it or how to write it which comes first…The days have been nice except for the bad storm we had on Saturday night was awaken with a loud thunder and bright lights lite up the town…Tornado’s were coming down strong on North West Ohio they lost five people to these storms..remeber when you lived in Crosby Texas..that was a nice place out there. Think though you, Leticia  think she had two or three of her kids not sure who else lived out there but think you had family across the street not sure was not kin to me so reckon it did not matter to me (that is rued.) Anyway I remember just got back to Texas from Montana and my son had passed on to the good Lords hands as you are now…Anyway we were in the car a friend of mine think it was Nancy Laurie at that time…anyway we had to pull  over

well it has been 7 years since you have been gone and i can still remember like it was yesterday. from the time i left to go there to the time i left to come home , the ones who  were greedy still are and the ones that are not have alot to say, today is a very nice day out and i guess it was met to be, i have not had my coffee yet , so i am still tired , i was crying yesterday but just for a minute then i was planting  my garden . i felt it would be a good thing to plant and i did . i hope to have a nice one this year. Mark and i will be going to Hawaii soon can’t wait mom . Dad told me it is very nice there and where we are going he has been . which i find cool.  i am going to go drink my coffee and enjoy the morning and watch the birds in our back yard, I love you and miss very much

                                                          leticia

Actually it is afternoon, suppose to be doing a famly cleaning the yard///so was on line and making comments of some of the pics a cousin came on facebook anyway i will be back later tonight love ya

 it is very nice out today still abit cloudy but it is going to clear and be nice out after two days of rain my plants are looking bountyfull i think that is a word lol Mark and i will be planting the garden soon we want to make clear of all frost PLANTS cost alot this year i guess the govenment wants us to depend on them for our food,  not this house mom lol. Mark and i can’t decide what to do for our ANNIVERSTY this year just being together is a joy so what ever it is i am sure we will have fun . spoke to roxann last night for a bit and she got a new pup to go with her other one she has 3 dogs now i know she was upset about not getting areanna but i told her god does things for reasons and so not to be upset. i think she is a good mom and the people in hawaii just did not like the idea of a child being put into a military home . Although she would have been well taking care of . funny how things work out . any way i was going to call your other daughter but decided not to i figure if she wants to talk, she would call if her husband lets her . i am glad mom, that mark does not care that i reached out to her infact he is more upset  that she would lie about her life with her husband to me than any thing else he does not like it when people  hurt me, o well on to better things i sent a good morning to john i hope he sees it i get to work thursday and friday  so that should keep me busy not to mention that i enjoy it . i had to go back on my yogurt i have not been to well as far as my digestive symtom goes of course i don’t blabb to everyone only because i want everyone else to be happy lol i neede to go mom i will talk to later

hey i went shopping bought new plants for our garden. cleaned house and i am about to start cloths again i like being a stay home wife and i like that i can work some times if i want. i don’t have to work and i guess was hard to get use to i have several  ? to ask. ones i know that won’t be anserwd opps you know what i mean lol i have no secrets and i don’t have to say don’t tell soinso either because there is no soinso lol mom i am just rambling things off i don’t even know if you are still around right now some times i feel you some times nada i went to this real nice place and got some candels . when i walked in the lady there said to me you are the reason i opened early i never open early i thought it was so funny i laughed out loud i could feel the happiness in the air . this woman has helped me understand these ” gifts” i have and she also told me not to be afraid and so far everything is good i have been only saing good things and wishing good things too sad as it is some people need to stop look and listen to what it is that bothers them and try to fix it not curse it well i will be back probaly tomorrow love ya and miss ya and it feels like rain is going to be around for a few more days

     leticia

good morning i have been thinking to much lately and i guess sometimes that is not a good thing, i have been wondering why some things are just not what i expected to be. but realize it was because of alot of lies in the world. Today is Lauras Birthday , she and i have been chatting with each other and she said alot of things that made me smile lol she really looked up to you  for someone to talk to and she feels abit lost with out you but i am sure she will be fine as time goes on she and her husband are very happy ,like mark and i are it is nice to know other couples  get along with each other and don’t lie to each other about things. any way i just thought i would pop in and write to you not like you can read this or anything it is just a good way of connecting to other side . I have had a head ache now for some time now and now my nose is runny yuk i hate that. gonna go now mum later love ya

                                                             Leticia